You have a week. Your now entering day 4.
I have decided that after the “Citadel”, I’d prefer to… hand over my GMing to someone else. I don’t feel I can really complete this Epic campaign. I have a lot of stressors outside the game, and while I enjoy GMing I am kind of tiring of Star Wars (at least from a GM perspective). It’s not really any player individually or even the collection of players. I simply tire of the genre, rules, books, indexes and complexities of high level combat.
I’m not saying I’d never ever go back to it, but from a GM perspective I feel overloaded. I thoroughly enjoy storytelling, social interaction, plot, and having the party derail my master plan with their random whims, crazy plans, and wonderful interpretations of their characters. That last bit wasn’t sarcasm. It might sound like it, but it wasn’t. Luke keeps wanting to get rid of Max Gentlemen, but personally I like the idea that one of the party members is a Jersey Shore wannabe.
Combat I enjoy, but it grates on me a bit when it gets convoluted. Every time we stop to check a rulebook, or have to use the index, a part of me wants to scream like Annie from community season 2 “Cooperative Calligraphy” ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyD8kmWqiKE ). I don’t really hate it that much, but there are just too many rules for 1 person to know. Too many rules with several different interpretations. Some rules seem to contradict each other. While others are so obscure that the fact I know them kinda bothers me. I’m not saying I don’t want to play, but it’s way to big for me to GM. At least at this point in my life.
The minute I looked at Ryan’s “Batman” type character sheet plan, I knew I was walking down a dark, dark path. A path that leads to me, sitting alone with a bunch of computer screens in a shadowy room trying to pretend I don’t envy superman’s ice breathe. Eventually viewing the players like a bunch of Penguins, Riddlers, and hot redheads wearing green with poison kisses. I really don’t want to view you guys that way. But I also know that if keep trying to be the Dark Knight, I’ll eventually end up the Joker (Min Lo is a reflection of my inability to be a dark protector). The madness is already starting to sink in.
I don’t want to discourage Ryan from living his dream. But I know as a GM, I would. I’d want to kill him. For a thousand reasons, none of which involve him being awesome or powerful or batman-like. I would just view him as a giant time waster, and ruiner of the ohh so precious ‘suspension-of-disbelief’. Not only that, I’d view him as encouraging others to follow that path.
One Batman terrifies me, I don’t need 4-6 alternate reality versions of him.
Once again, this is simply me as a GM. As a player, Batman would get on my nerves a tad, but alas he is the GM’s problem. And honestly, as a player I will not condemn you for playing him. I might throw out words like ‘power-gamer’ ( http://diceofdoom.com/blog/2009/08/powergaming-introduction/ ) or ‘munchkin’ ( http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/Munchkin ) or ‘Meta-gamer’ ( http://www.rpg.net/news+reviews/columns/darkart22jan03.html ) or Twinky ( synonymous with power-gamer but sounds less cool and alluding to homosexual pimping out of oneself… I will forever use this term). Once again, a joke, but with a grain of truth and contempt. I will never stop other players being different from me, but I’m more likely to plead the 1st not the 5th when I see something that I disagree with in a game. This may make me unpopular, but I’d rather be honest and hated than loved and lying. After my pun or slur is said, I’ll likely go back to doing what I do and try to ignore the things I don’t like. I respect your right to make a killing machine of infinite death power, but I also expect you to respect my right to say I think it’s gay.
If you think my ways are lame or retarded feel free to tell me. But please keep in game slurs to a 3 sentence maximum. It slows the game down, reducing the amount of monsters you can slay for XP and loot you can gain. You may have to wait 3-4 more games if you go out of your way to demoralize players at the table to reach god-hood. You may even causing a ‘Meta-Enemy" to form. Not with me, but with people that agree with whoever you assault in life. I’ve seen this happen in other aspects of reality it’s called politics.
I like the Batman concept. A dark animal totem type defender of the innocent. A guy that uses the darkness against itself. Shadowy justice. Just remember that other than Superman, most of the Justice League kinda find Batman to be a jerk. “When you gaze long into the abyss the abyss also gazes into you.” a quote by a guy I don’t like, but non-the-less reminds me of Min-Lo’s madness.
I think I got derailed… Ohh yeah. GMing.
I’m going to create my own system. With a rulebook that has less than 15 pages. A character sheet that is one page. With a big space for you to draw a picture of your hero. Yeah…
Alternatively, I’m also considering encouraging players to play SW Minis but with representational pieces. I love minis so much. It’s raw tactics with a bit of strategy. If we could get all the rules and piece stats we could play it without needing all the cards and pieces. I love that game. To me, that is the place to power game, and power game I shall.
In summary. I will GM till the Citadel is taken. After that, I’d like the be a player, at least in Saga-Edition. I will eventually make a rulebook, play test it, and then start my own campaign.
Thank You for listening to me rant.